Make the most of what you have.

Hello fellow bloggers again!

Apologies for the delay in my blog this week but i have been attempting to get over the excitement of turning 22, getting engaged and staying in the beautiful 5* celtic manor! It has been an extremely emotional and magical week for my mummy brain.

I just thought i would have a little chat with you guys as ive seen a couple videos on youtube this week that have really pulled at my heart strings and rethink how i am.

First off marie bits and clips! Me oh my that lady is a true mummy hero after everything she has been through. It is beyond me how she is still uploading beautiful vlogs every week! Her disney ones recently have honestly set my mummy emotions off in places i never knew they could go. Watching her and the bits and clips family walk through disney really just melted me into a ball of tears! Scarlett is just so incredibly greatful to be there and that is a true credit to marie for being such an amazing parent and strong women which probably doesn't get said enough. (Lots of mummy love to you and your wonderful little family)

Second of all gabby's (velvet ghost) honesty video. The amount of hate that girl makes me so angry. It just makes you realise how engrossed we are with the internet these days! What happened to playing board games and running outside playing sticks by the river chucking one in one side of the bridge and running across to see who's stick had won over and over and over again. It makes me realise how much i take forgranted.

This week having my fiancee home and just spending time together with Isla seeing how fast she has grown up just scared me. These past 3 months have flown by and everyone says make the most of it because it will go fast well it really has. I take forgranted the fact i get to spend every single day with our beautiful daughter where as my partner has to go to work everyday and feel like he is missing out on islas milestones which she is making so fast right now! That isnt the way things should be i just wish he could be at home with us every single day to but i know we have to make money to live some how!

Rather than just being with my little girl i am so obsessed over documenting my time with her in photos or videos over excessively. I need to focus more on the precious little moments to document and the other 70% of the time just be with her and make her laugh else sooner or later she will be off to college or moving away to go to university and by then it will be me sat at home wondering why i fussed over the internet googling how to be a good parent, reading umpteen amounts of blogs taking parenting tips or trying to seek approval or get reassurance of whether im doing okay as a parent and still when isla is just having a grumpy day blaming it on myself and me thinking im a bad mum just because she wont stop crying that isnt what my life should be like babies do just have grouchy days and need a good cry like everybody does at some point. I know everyone has insecurities but mine is very much my parenting skills as i am constantly putting myself down about it. I know some people will look at me and think im too young to be a mum at 22 but so what that was our choice to start a family at this time and i can do as good of a job as a 40 year old mum or that 60 year old mum over in germany or where ever it was! Being a good mum shouldn't be judged by age or how wealthy you are. It is how much you make of what you have and making the most of the time and the facilities you all have while you can all still be together as a family. 

For now i am making sure that i have dark time! That means no phone, no internet just me and my family watching crappy tv and chatting like normal people! and as isla gets older its time for us all to play games like we used to do before technology took over our lives. I know more than likely i will still post photos or videos of isla on occasion because what parent doesn't! As long as isla is happy and smiley every day i know i am doing what i can for my little girl and i am doing an okay job. As scary as it is to say but my parenting will one day affect how Isla brings up her children and her children's children. I am vowing to give 100% of my time to my little girl to make sure i do the very best i can for her. So for now i am switching off to just be postive and enjoy the crazyness of parenthood.

Sorry it was such a long blog but i just needed to ramble! Feel free to comment and share around. Will you have dark time to spend some quality time with your beautiful families? Let me know your thoughts :)

Ciao for now
Mel xoxox

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Marie bits n clips - https://youtu.be/JF8tC-JY-YI

Gabby - https://youtu.be/X4qdIzfWAgA